one month later

After one month. After March madness passed I realized that she is done with me. Avi actually did like me… it was really nice that she actually saw me as a potential man for her. I did not live up to the words that were said cause I got too excited in the moment. She was perfect and my dream girl. Saw her naked, saw her nudes, got head, kissed her. Almost did everything but that. Hurts my heart a lot that I could not find out more. If there was any chance of us happening. I would love to know and find out. She was my world for 3 weeks straight she was my world. A Part of me thinks she felt like that too but now that the distance since BSD has been made and the fact that she knows I’m this “player” even though Im not. That is what hurt a little. Oh well. I tried and now all I can do is remain iced. She curved me, walked away, and isn’t looking back ever, I wish she would give me a chance. I know I been saying that I don’t want to blow it. But what I will always want is Avi. To hope that she may one day hit my line. If you are real. If I can be the main character, and get her back. That is what I want in life